"All I wanna do all day is spend it in bed...

...but that's bad for the body, and worse for my head..."

Ironically enough, the title of this post is the exact opposite sentiment to the way that I feel. I no longer want to sleep. Sure, I could just go and lay down my head upon that soft pillow and loose myself wrapped in that big warm blanket...but I just don't want to.

I've been going to sleep progressively later over the past few weeks. Last night I was out at the Reel Big Fish show, and didn't get back until gone 1am. Of course, I sat up and wasted my time for a little while trying to download a song, so I was up until 1:30, when I passed out. Tonight I was out and about until about 12:25. It's now 12:45, and I'm no closer to sleeping. I know I need to, but I really have little to no desire to do it. I don't even feel tired, just a little disjointed at this point.

Like I said, I know I have to. We all need sleep, it's a human function, and if we don't, things start to slide. I can hardly muster as much as a smile until early afternoon these days. If nothing else, this at least gives me fuel for my blog, but I'm not even thinking, just working, working, working. The phrase "zone-out" never felt so real. As so often happens in life, or at least mine, I seem to be working toward an eventual goal, or at least a breaking point. I'm guessing it'll be the end of the week, when my two week leave of absence starts. I won't get to sleep, but at least I won't have to wake up.

And don't even get me started on what could happen there.

We'll see what Friday holds.
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A few people have been bugging me about not writing here enough. Contrary to popular belief a) I'm really, REALLY busy, and b) I need something to write about, and time to reflect upon it, which I am lacking in one or both cases. So don't bug me. I can write about everyday crap or I can write something interesting. If you want crap, go to a crap factory. This is not a crap factory.

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This blog is becoming less of a journal and more of an introspective. The more I write, the less I want to write about what I just did or what I'm about to do, and more about what I'm thinking and "feeling". I like this more. It means less volume, but more quality. I'm also liking using song lyrics in the titles. This will probably stay as long as I find relevant songs to listen to.

If you don't like either of these two directions, please proceed to the aforementioned crap factory.

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Currently Listening to: Reel Big Fish / Littlest Man Band - Drunk Again